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for my english homework i had to revise theses about William Blake's "The Chimney Sweeper" that my classmates had written. i have had entirely too much fun completing this assignment. my paper has more red on it than hamu has on her bed after the first night of her period. the red ink brings out irony/sarcasm/criticism i would never dare say to the author face to face, and seems to encourage the use of question marks and exclamation points. for example:
to the phrase "Blake uses diction. . ." i have written "WHAT KIND?!?!?!?!?! WHY IS THIS SIGNIFICANT, MORON?!?!?!?! IS IT POSSIBLE TO NOT USE DICTION IN A POEM!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!"
don't even get me started on the grammar corrections! god, i love grammar.
this week is going by rather quickly, which is good because i have had a lot of work, and have somehow not had emotional breakdown about the lover leaving. maybe this is because my soul has become more bitter and has less room for tears. i am also excited for this weekend. it should be fun.
my next post will most likely be college related, as decisions are coming out in the next two weeks. keep you posted. (get it?) oh god, anxiety/stress.
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Today was an A day. They are so glorious. I wish every day was an A day because then I would get to study french existentialist literatre tous les jours with Harelik the Magnificent.
I have a lot of homework to do right now. Mother just came in and told me to do it. I whined in response because I really just don't want to do homework right now. I am a senior why do I still do homework ah the universe is so harsh and indifferent to the human struggle. LISHMA IS DEAD
my haircut makes me look latina
also, on friday I am speaking to the juniors about why they should take AP Lit/J. Thought. lol. maybe the cool persian will speak with me, and then i will not be ridiculed!
hi hamu, tell me something good
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[05 Feb 2007|12:19am] |
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on days like these
basking, breathing, basting in rays and melted innards
(liquidated, from outside and in)
it's kind of like, a man
a new one
in an aura of elation
inner peace realized- suddenly? (or was it there all the time)
and yet
dreading
the end
walking through a tunnel of trees, encased, like a hamster
helmeted
happy just happy and oh so happy
taking snapshots with flashes and eye lashes
finding that sun, dappling paws
. . . click click click
like 20 little stillettos
but, you know, grown. from pads and furs and pages.
so, now the question comes:
a radiant rodent, living in tubes?
or just. . . radiant?
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| a few things |
[30 Jan 2007|05:24pm] |
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Item I: Notes Taken During Math Class
"Reasons Hamutahl is Pimply"
a. "Keep It In"
b. meatz
c. Thinks in LJ posts
d. mother
Item II: The Weather
every time I wear my brown courderoys that hamutahl gave me because they were too small for her, it rains. Every time. Am I controlling the weather or is the weather controlling my clothing?
Item III: Granola
yum.
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| teen angst |
[04 Jan 2007|11:10pm] |
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so, first emotional lash out of the new year, this calls for an lj post!
I went to the Kenyon open house tonight. I liked it, but I just can't seem to get enthusiastic about any school, as if no school is right for me or has anything that I want. I am calling this burnout as of now. The conversation with my mother went something like this:
me: "i wish i'd gotten into brown"
mother: "i know honey" *shoulder pat*
me: "oh, life."
I have also lost my assignment book. This is bad. very bad. I have lots of homework right now, I'm just not sure what, and it's not 2nd semester. . . YET
I just spent more than an hour at the Arbisser's house trying to figure out my calculus take-home midterm (lolz, oh missah lim.) I only took this class for college. Too bad I got deferred from Brown!
I have also apparently, in the words of Emily Haines, committed "sexual suicide."
This is the part where I talk about the futility/meaninglessness of life. and DONE. On a better note, I am drinking hot cocoa and dunking graham crackers into it. cocoaaaaa
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| Brown University. . . OH WELL |
[14 Dec 2006|05:42pm] |
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Dear Rachel,
After a careful evaluation of your credentials, the Board of Admission has voted to postpone a final decision on your application. During the coming months, we will review the materials you previously submitted as well as any additional credentials you may wish to send to us.
By no means should you interpret the Board's vote to defer your application as a denial of admission. The majority of our Early Decision applicants are neither accepted nor rejected, but deferred; and your application remains under very active consideration. Our decision means that the Board wishes to have additional time to compare your application wish those of our Regular Decision applicant pool. You should know that during the past few years the admission rate for students deferred Early Decision has been nearly the same as that for Regular Decision applicants.
Your official admission decision letter has been mailed to you and I ask that you read it carefully, as it contains more detailed information than is possible for us to provide here. If you are an applicant for the Program in Liberal Medical Education, please be aware that this deferral includes your candidacy for that program as well.
It is important for me to reiterate that your application will be considered without prejudice in the spring evaluation of our Regular Decision applicant group, and you will be notified by mail in late March of the Board's final decision. Please do not hesitate to contact our office if you have any questions or if we may be of assistance to you.
Yours sincerely,
James S. Miller
Dean of Admission
i'm pissed and am blaming this all on milken for its lack of ivy league connections
i don't know what i could have done differently
i need a drink
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| whoop? |
[06 Dec 2006|06:21pm] |
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ItsKickinInYeah: you should start updating your lj
ItsKickinInYeah: i would appprove
BoopLov1: no
BoopLov1: no one will read it
ItsKickinInYeah: i would
k
hey internet, please accept me
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[04 Jun 2005|04:46pm] |
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i just pierced my own ear.
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ya, so what my english essay is due tomorrow?
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[14 Mar 2005|07:39am] |
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im in the library u hacker |
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either this comp is messed up, or someone has been messing with my layout. and u no it wuznt me b/c i hav no fing clue how 2 use this thing. culprit, show urself! personally, i think its hamu. . . .
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| wut a very cool thing 2 do in the cit-ay |
[06 Mar 2005|11:00pm] |
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Tupac (dont be hatin') |
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props 2 all us citay people, b/c once again there is something cool 2 do in the citay, while there is nothing 2 do "over the hill."
The Aero, just bought and redone by American cinemateque, shows old movies, including double features every night. ocho dinero. mucho grande. woot woot i dont even speak spanish, and i can say that. so yes, check it out and support your local theaters!
ps i saw the ending of a ronald (or robert . . . cant remember which) colman festival, showing "a tale of two cities" and "if i were king" (lots of men in tights . . . nummy?
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[06 Feb 2005|10:14pm] |
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Spice Girl's "Move Over" . . . they alwys mke me feel better |
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i just had the biggest fucking fight with my parents of my life. im a good daughter, i really am. i've never really felt the urge to rebel before. but i really just wanna do something to piss them off so bad, and 2 just remind them subtly, or not so much, that they don't fucking own me. ugh i wish i wuz 16 and had my license cuz i'd just leave and drive and drive and drive and never come bak. i'd live in my car and go 2 skool and continue getting good grades, but it would b a life without someone else controlling it.
i really feel that all the "afterglow" of last night and actually this past week and last weekend have been completely sucked up in this last hour. i knew it wuz too fucking good to last.
I will be open to hugs tomorrow, let's put it that way.
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hello! haven't done this in a while.
minyan was quite excellent, as always, today. shalev and i made a fort and formed the walrus club. Ariel and Kayla sat upside down. Rose got pissy. over all, a marvelous event.
i must say that I love the poss. they've come a long way from the boys who roar . . . does ne1 remember that? oh fagen . . .
speaking of the poss: in english, we watched the 6th grade play of macbeth. had no fing clue wut wuz going on, but seeing zachy talk exactly the same way as he does now wuz the highlight of my day, among other things.
David Dassa is a god. a beautiful glistening graceful god. that is all.
Excited 4 saturday! see everyone there!
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| daily words of wisdom |
[16 Dec 2004|07:52am] |
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fuck those who fuck themselves and think the rest of the world fucks them too.
the most random and "profound" things come out of your mouth wen u r very very tired.
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[11 Dec 2004|04:07pm] |
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Your Element Is Fire |
Your passion and emotion are as obvious as the brightest flame.
You make sparks fly, and your passion always has the potential to burst out.
You are exciting and creative - and completely unpredictable.
You sometimes exercise control, and sometimes you let yourself go.
Friends describe you as sensitive, spirited, and compulsive.
Bright and blazing with intensity, you seem mysterious and moody to many.
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Expressive |
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Likeable |
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[11 Dec 2004|03:43pm] |
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You are 67% Virgo
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this sign thing never really made sense to me. but newayz, ive gotta live w/it.
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[06 Dec 2004|10:08pm] |
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POOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOP
(drop it like it's hot, yo)
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[05 Dec 2004|08:30pm] |
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"drop it like it's hot" |
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im addicted i no shut up its all hamus fault. but im sry this was just too good not to post.
profoundness: it's shrinking!!! it's shrinking!!! well, sorta . . . .
peeing in the woods is like a flaxen-haired angel blowing on my . . .
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[05 Dec 2004|08:12pm] |
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cuando me miras asi |
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y is this thing so goddamn fun. hamu agrees. since im sitting here on the phone with her doing love generator at the same time. over and over. now she is making strange noises.
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[05 Dec 2004|08:06pm] |
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"don't worry, be happy" |
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mmmm . . .cookies
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